Dream

Last night I dreamed you killed me
In so slowly, painful and seductive way
Your fangs reaping the skin of my neck
Drawing my blood and drinking it

In some point you stopped sucking
When I was almost delightful dying
You bring close your mouth to my lips
And I started licking yours in agony

I barely could watch your eyes for the last time
They were red because the blood
Your pupils were extended like holes
but they're still beautiful like none.

Suddenly I woke up and you weren't there
I caress my neck with scary hope
slowly and insecure I found it close to me ear
your bite, still fresh, wet, so gore.

Last night I dreamed you killed me
and now that I'm awake
I just don't feel like living...

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Xalapa, Ver. 21/08/09

Only you

Some hours ago I was with you... again, as I loved to be... and you don't know how much happy you made me just for being with me. It was so fun, so delighting, and so nice to be together, at least for a little while! I missed your eyes, I missed your voice, I missed your whole body, I missed your lips, your hair, I missed you! And even now I miss you because I'm not longer by you side, walking, talking, and watching each other.... laughing!
I couldn't say anything to you; I become stupid beside you.... my tongue got mute when I wanted to speak. I just felt so fool... but happy... I'm a stupid happy fool that always will be watching for you... trying once and again to tell you what is this feeling that keeps me alive and bleeding!

I LOVE YOU!

Even if you hadn't noticed it... I'm crazy about you... and believe me.... I'm too sorry about letting you go... about being so damned coward and weak... about not admitting what I'd feel, and what I'm still feeling... about not defending my nature, desires and dreams...

I LOVE YOU!!!

And I cannot understand how I got at this point! Because you know that I don't like to say something I don't feel, and I don't like to commit myself in fakes... but, You! You have done something to me that I cannot explain, you have bewitched me by your sweetness and softness and now I can't run away from it, and even if I could I wouldn't because I don't want to.

I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!

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Xalapa, Ver. 06/06/09

Only you

Some hours ago I was with you... again, as I loved to be... and you don't know how much happy you made me just for being with me. It was so fun, so delighting, and so nice to be together ¡At least for a little while! I missed your eyes, I missed your voice, I missed your whole body, I missed your lips, your hair, ¡I missed you! And even now I miss you because I'm not longer by you side, walking, talking, and watching each other.... ¡laughing!
I couldn't say anything to you; I become stupid beside you.... my tongue got mute when I wanted to speak. I just felt so fool... but happy... I'm a stupid happy fool that always will be watching for you... trying once and again to tell you what is this feeling that keeps me alive and bleeding!

I LOVE YOU!

Even if you hadn't noticed it... I'm crazy about you... and believe me.... I'm too sorry about letting you go... about being so damned coward and weak... about not admitting what I'd feel, and what I'm still feeling... about not defending my nature, desires and dreams...

I LOVE YOU!!!

And I cannot understand how I got at this point! Because you know that I don't like to say something I don't feel, and I don't like to commit myself in fakes... but ¡You! You have done something to me that I cannot explain, you have bewitched me by your sweetness and softness and now I can't run away from it, and even if I could I wouldn't because I don't want to.

I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!

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Xalapa, Ver. 06/06/09

Nothing

I feel empty, just like there's nothing else inside me, 

and it's a strange feeling because i used to felt always something.

Anger, happiness, loneliness, pain, love or hate, 

anything but never nothing. 

I don't know if this situation is good or bad, 

I just know that it's not usual.

Maybe I’m tired of being alone 

and my heart now is who is trying of keep me safe from another deception. 

Maybe he's whom is hiding the emotions for my own security. 

I'm not pretty sure, 

but it seams to be the more reasonable reason.
Could anyone ever cure this fear of been hurt?
Could anyone ever make sure of keep my feelings safe?
Or should I stay lonely for make sure of myself?

I don't really know, 

but at list I'll be waiting for this weird situation pass 

or for someone come to fix it. 

Whatever happens first, 

I'll be waiting... just like always...

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Xalapa, Ver. 05/05/09

Love

Is love a feeling that I should understand?
Is love a feeling that I should get?
How can I be sure of what is right?
How can I be sure of my own desires?

I'm just to tired of keep waiting,
So fucking tired of being searching,
And now is when I realized that it’s not matter of time
But matter of patience...

Bad luck I'm not tolerant, much less reasonable,
Those are aspects that I've never had,
And now that I need them... I don’t think they will show up.

Not even with girls, not even with boys
I've not found what I ask, in any Of both
Sometimes I've felt that I was close,
Close to find What I want the most

But they were just illusions,
They were just mirages
Just pictures inside a mirror
That I could never get

I want somebody that understand my sorrows
Somebody that heal my pain
I want some dark love that could be part
Of my hurted faith

I want to find my lost half
That one who is supposed to love me
I want to find that girl or that man
that will stay by my side always...

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Xalapa, Ver. 16/05/09

Something more

Now that my streight is not enogh

Not for keep my feet on the ground

Not to get clearly thoughts

And not for keep al least your sound

Now that I wish not to be a strange for you

For be able to talk, to fearless watch

Now that I know this is not love

Is something more…

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Xalapa, Ver.  September/2008